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C h I r S t M a S ......

Wow!  Christmas is all most here..... this year brings with it mixed emotions.....last year as I was all involved with the wonders of the season preparing for the dinner we were going to have with wonderful friends on Christmas day  (we serve as church planters and rarely get to go home for holidays) here on the island. I was snuggled in my bed sleeping while visions of Christmas past were filling my dreams ....when all of a sudden I was jarred awake by the shrill ring of my cell phone. I stumbled to retrieve it, I rubbed my eyes and glanced at the clock on the wall .....12:45 am ....who would be calling at this time??? as I answered I heard ....."Aunt Pam?"...  "yes", I replied. this is Sheila and mom passed away. I was suddenly very awake ....and my mind rushed to try and think of how can i help I am so far away, "When? How?" along with all the other thinks you ask a time when the world around you is crashing down....does Grandma know?. My niece said she needed to go and would call me back. Needless to say more phone calls were made and tears where shed and shock took over. I was frozen not from physical coldness but from the iciness that freezes you emotionally as I began to walk out the hardest holiday of my life, or so I thought.
So.... here I am facing the anniversary of her death and trying to juggle the ambivalent emotions that are at war in my head. Friends have been supportive....Thank you God for them....however I am still facing the moments and times when there is no one else,,,, it is these moments that God has been carrying me,  funny thing - this was my sisters favorite poem -footprints, maybe God is showing me what Sis and I often talked about how it is by His grace that we make it through our hardest times.
Thanks God for that reminder......Well even though Christmas may not be all that this year,,,,, I am going to make it......and if you my friend are struggling you can to.......you see that is really what Christmas is all about .....God's amazing gift of love and grace born for us ......so that we can hope......in Him the one called Emmanuel....... God is with us.
Happy Birthday Jesus!  Merry Christmas and may you have a Blessed New Year!