Hello .........
so much has happened to me in my life since the last post ....I am in Colorado, where I have been since the 18th of January, watching over my husband who has been in and out of the hospital since we arrived. 

We are both questioning what is this all about God?

Life is very unpredictable and the only constant in this life is God -I am very aware that He is the only thing I have that never changes - He is the strong tower in the storm. 

There is a saying - "smooth seas do not make skillful sailors"  so the cry of my heart in this tumultuous sea I am living in is TEACH me Lord -----TEACH me ----- help me to learn well -----how to ride out the storms while navigating the obstacles that so easily try to persuade me that there is no hope.

Where is this journey that God has laid out taking me? us? 
only time will tell...so friend if you find yourself in this same place in this life we that we all live.....please know that we are each others voice calling out the words of hope and encouragement that no matter what each of may be enduring in this season of time we are children---He is a good Father ---His eye is on us ----He is our refuge and strength and as the song says.....So hold me Jesus....I'm shaking like a leaf....you have been King of my glory.....Won't you be my Prince of peace...come lord come 

Newness of days

Can you feel the crisp freshness of days before us….

untouched by anything ……laid out in front of us by

 the hand of our creator…..as a canvas that leans

 upon the easel awaiting the artist

….our life is the brush that is painting the image as the

minutes of each hour is counted down….what is it that we will

reflect upon the canvas? 

Each breath given to us to be breathed in and out ….life anew…

to give to other artists around a fresh new insight….

to the colors upon our canvas….

that they can pick of them to place

upon their canvas of life and see His glory.

I long to see what each artist will show forth….. unto the teacher of this art…..

the skillful one who has given so freely to us…. this life to be used as we desire…

to paint for all the world to see…..the wonder of His love…mercies…grace…forgiveness.

We live to give glory to Abba…..to reflect Him….to be the masterpiece….

to be the paint on the canvas…showing forth what he has created …

 forming in and through us.

 Lord may you give us the desire to know you …more intimately….

to reflect in us the wonder of you …on all the moments that we move…

 live out the work of your hands in our lives on the canvas of life. Blessings!

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˚ ˛ •˛• ˚ ｜ 田田 ｜門｜ ˚And a Happy New Year !!
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C h I r S t M a S ......

Wow!  Christmas is all most here..... this year brings with it mixed emotions.....last year as I was all involved with the wonders of the season preparing for the dinner we were going to have with wonderful friends on Christmas day  (we serve as church planters and rarely get to go home for holidays) here on the island. I was snuggled in my bed sleeping while visions of Christmas past were filling my dreams ....when all of a sudden I was jarred awake by the shrill ring of my cell phone. I stumbled to retrieve it, I rubbed my eyes and glanced at the clock on the wall .....12:45 am ....who would be calling at this time??? as I answered I heard ....."Aunt Pam?"...  "yes", I replied. this is Sheila and mom passed away. I was suddenly very awake ....and my mind rushed to try and think of how can i help I am so far away, "When? How?" along with all the other thinks you ask a time when the world around you is crashing down....does Grandma know?. My niece said she needed to go and would call me back. Needless to say more phone calls were made and tears where shed and shock took over. I was frozen not from physical coldness but from the iciness that freezes you emotionally as I began to walk out the hardest holiday of my life, or so I thought.
So.... here I am facing the anniversary of her death and trying to juggle the ambivalent emotions that are at war in my head. Friends have been supportive....Thank you God for them....however I am still facing the moments and times when there is no one else,,,, it is these moments that God has been carrying me,  funny thing - this was my sisters favorite poem -footprints, maybe God is showing me what Sis and I often talked about how it is by His grace that we make it through our hardest times.
Thanks God for that reminder......Well even though Christmas may not be all that this year,,,,, I am going to make it......and if you my friend are struggling you can to.......you see that is really what Christmas is all about .....God's amazing gift of love and grace born for us ......so that we can hope......in Him the one called Emmanuel....... God is with us.
Happy Birthday Jesus!  Merry Christmas and may you have a Blessed New Year!

My Roller Coaster Life

I remember as a child being fascinated by the rides at the amusement park - the most intriguing one was the "WILDCAT" roller coaster. I can remember hearing the screams as people were whipped around as they plummeted down after going so slowly to the crest of the track. Needless to say I was eager to try - my brother was designated to ride with me and as I held his sweaty hand my stomach began to flip - what had I gotten my self into!  I still can fill the rush as I write about it, remembering the thought that surely I was going to fall from the ride to my death as I was moved ever which way but loose! What an adventure it was to have my first but not my last ride on the notorious Wildcat.
               
                                                     
Many times when this life gets crazy with its ups and downs - I scream out, "get me out of here!" - and it is just in that moment on the roller coaster of life that God steps in and slows the ride and I am able to gather my thoughts - begin to breath with ease - then sense with anticipation the wonder of that journey - it brings back the mystery of what lies ahead and I want to go again. So off I go over the next crest to the depths that my soul can stand - only to have the saga repeated over and over until this roller coaster ride of life is over and I have to leave the amazement park of life.

God is forever faithful and His mercies are new everyday - He holds me in the hallow of His hand and no matter how far the car on my roller coaster life plunges - He is my safety - only with Him can I enjoy the thrill of this life - find my breath - and cry out "one more time papa - just one more time."

Knowing that His love and mercies will guide me and with Him there is no fear just wonderment as to how the ride has been made.
Till next week -Blessings!